52 LIKL OF ULT. JOHN MURRAY.
unvarieil routine, lit?, who had appointed \iw lor a hie ot wandering, gave me a disposition which relucted at tlie constiint recurrence of the saniiJ scene ; I ventured to pass one evening abroad : anoUier, and another succeeded. I was severely reflected upon, and I felt it keenly : conscious of meriting reproach, I was the more dec^ply wounded. I h;ul been recently conversant with a young preacher from England ; my imagination was liriHl : the world could not have longer detained me ; I condemned mvselffor wasting so much time : my heart, my soul was in England, in London. Let the world bestow its censures, London was the place, it contained every thing delightful ; I was on tiptoe to be gone ; if I \vai not approved by the family, so much the better, there would be less ingratitude in quitting it. My dear mater- nal friend once more sought, and obtained a private internew ; this I wishere, then, ends all my pleasing prospects ; now in- deeil I have lost my sons ; poor Anna, she has now, in truth, no broth- er. Go, iuiliai)py youth, go, the sooner you de|)art, the better : I do not wish to see. you again." She left me, nor will 1 attempt a descrip- tion of my sensations. I retired to my chamber, my chamber noAV no more ; I wept, I audibly sobbed. In imagination I beheld the be- loved Iriend, by whom it was once occupied : he seemed to upbraid m«j or my conduct : how torturing were the pangs I suliered. U|)on the evening of this sad day, my cherub friend entered the chamber, and for the last time, during my abode therein ; jiretty soul, she threw her arms around my neck, my face was wet with lu r tears ; she told me, that her sister was very, very sad ! ( )n what occasion, my love ?
- ' Why, papa is very, very angry with you : and she says, you are go-
ing away to-morrow, she knows not where, and that she shall never see Toua^ain ; and she wallas about her chamber, and wrings her hands.