between them, Isabel said to herself, but she said nothing more than this. If it were something of importance, it should inspire respect; if it were not, it was not worth her curiosity. With all her love of knowledge, Isabel had a natural shrinking from raising curtains and looking into unlighted corners. The love of knowledge co-existed in her mind with a still tenderer love of ignorance.
But Madame Merle sometimes said things that startled her, made her raise her clear eyebrows at the time, and think of the words afterwards.
"I would give a great deal to be your age again," she broke out once, with a bitterness which, though diluted in her customary smile, was by no means disguised by it. "If I could only begin again—if I could have my life before me!"
"Your life is before you yet," Isabel answered gently, for she was vaguely awe-struck.
"No; the best part is gone, and gone for nothing."
"Surely, not for nothing," said Isabel.
"Why not—what have I got? Neither husband, nor child, nor fortune, nor position, nor the traces of a beauty which I never had."
"You have friends, dear lady."
"I am not so sure!" cried Madame Merle.
"Ah, you are wrong. You have memories, talents———"
Madame Merle interrupted her.
"What have my talents brought me? Nothing but the need of using them still, to get through the hours, the years, to cheat myself with some pretence of action. As for my memories, the less said about them the better. You will be my friend till you find a better use for your friendship."
"It will be for you to see that I don't then," said Isabel.
