The Light is shown me and I reach after it, but it is placed high out of my reach.
I see the promises in the Light. Oh, why—why does it promise these things! Is not the burden of life already greater than I can bear? And there is the story of the Christ. It is beautiful. It is damningly beautiful. It draws the tears of pain and soft anguish from me at the sense of beauty. And when every nerve in me is melted and overflowing, then suddenly I am conscious that it is a lie—a lie.
Everywhere I turn there is Nothing—Nothing.
My soul wails out its grief in loneliness.
My soul wanders hither and thither in the dark wilderness and asks, asks always in blind, dull agony, How long?—how long?
