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FORTITUDE

ing everything, sometimes shaking his huge head in disapproval, sometimes nodding his appreciation.

Peter wrote:

Dear, Dear Stephen,—I am furious, I hate myself. What can I have been doing all this time? I have thought of you often, hut my marriage and all the new life have made me selfish, and always I put off writing to you because I thought the quiet hour would come to me—and it has never come. But I have no excuse—except that in the real part of myself I love you, just the same as ever—and it will he always the same. I have been bewildered, I think, by all the things that have happened to me during this last year—but I will never he be bewildered again. Write to me from Spain and then as soon as you come back I will make amends for my wickedness. I am now and always, Your loving Peter.

Mr. Zanti took the letter.

“How is he?” asked Peter.

“I found 'im—down in Treliss. He wasn't 'appy. 'E was thinking of that woman. And then 'e was all alone. 'E got some work at a farm out at Pendragon and 'e was just goin' there when I came along and made 'im come to Spain. 'E was thinkin' of you a lot, Peter.”

Mr. Zanti cast one more look round the room. “Pretty,” he said. “Pretty. But not my sort of place. Too many walls—all too close in.”

In the hall he said once more—a little plaintively:—

“I should like to see your lady, Peter,” and then he went on hurriedly, “But don't you go and disturb her—not for anything—I understand. . . .

And, with his finger on his lip, wrapt in the deepest mystery, he departed into the rain.

As the door closed behind him, Peter felt a wave of chill, unhappy loneliness. He turned back into the cheerful little hall and heard Clare singing upstairs. He knew that they were going to have a delightful little dinner, that, afterwards, they would be at a party where every one would be pleased to see them—he knew that the evening in front of him should be wholly charming . . . and yet he was un-