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trembling heart and knees. Many passages in the book of Job, and the Psalms, particularly the 88th Psalm, I felt, as I read them, with peculiar sensations. Thus I continued for more than twelve months, enjoying scarcely two comfortable days together.
At length I came to this resolution, viz. give up the point of proving myself a child of God already, (which was what I had been labouring at all along) as a necessary medium of my comfort, and grant that I was a vile, sinful and every way unworthy creature, admit the whole charge brought against me, and seek my remedy in Christ. For I argued, there was for forgiveness with God for the chief of sinners. The Blood of Christ could cleanse from ALL sin-and therefore from mine. He came to call not the righteous but sinners to repentance ; sinner without distinction of degrees, sinners as such and because they were such. It was said, that ' whosoever would, might come and take of the waters of life freely,’ and ‘ that he would in n wise cast them out.’ Hence I was led to observe that if I could not go to him as a saint, I might go to him as a sinner. I resolved, therefore, to lay aside my inquiries after the evidence of my interest in him as one of his renewed people, and look entirely to him from whom all renewing grace, and the evidences of it must come, look to him as a guilty, polluted, perishing creature that had no hope, no succour, but in the p mercv of God through him. And thus I was k to such views of the all-sufficiency of the great Redeemer, and his willingness to save even the worst of sinners, such as I could conclude
