likewise when we indulge in a mode of thinking which would be detrimental to him: our love for him ought to urge us to ease his conscience for giving us up by means of some injustice which we take upon ourselves.
490
Those paltry truths!—*You know all this, but you have never gone through it,—I do not accept your evidence. Those ‘paltry truths'!—you deem them paltry because you have not paid for them at the price of your blood!’’ But are they actually great because we have paid too dearly for them? And blood is always too high & price! “Do you think so? How penurious you are of blood!"
491
Even therefore solitude!—A: So you wish to return into your desert?—B: I am not brisk, I have to wait for myself—it will be late by the time the water from the fount of my own soul gushes forth, and often I have to thirst longer than suits my patience, Therefore I go into the desert—in order not to drink from everybody's cistern. Among many my life is the same as that of many others and my thoughts are not my own; after a while it always seems to me as though they wished to banish me from myself and rob my soul—and I grow angry with and am afraid of everybody. Then I am in need of the desert to become good again.
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