health and honor; we fly swiftly through the day, freer than an eagle, and safer in darkness than an owl. But all at once it leaves us, and, at the same moment, a feeling of utter despondency overcomes us; we are puzzles to ourselves, we suffer from every experience and nonexperience, we feel as if surrounded by bare rocks facing a storm, and at the same time as wretched, childish souls, who are afraid of a rustle and a shadow. Three-fourths of all evil committed in the world are due to faint-heartedhess ; and this is, above all, a psychological process.
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Do you know what you want?—Have you ever been troubled by the fear lest you might be unfit for discovering that which is true? By the fear lest your senses might be too dull and even your delicacy of sight by far too blunt ? If only you could see how much volition is ruling your sight? How yesterday, for instance, you wished to see more than another did, while to-day you wish to see it in a different light; how, from the very first, yon longed to find an agreement with or the opposite of that which others before you fancied to have found. Oh, for these shameful cravings! How often you look out for that which is efficacious, for that which is soothing, because just then you happen to be tired! Always full of secret predetermination of what nature truth should be, so that you, indeed you, may accept it! Or do you think that to-day because you are frozen and dry as a bright winter morning, and
