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intrigues with a woman-servant, that had lasted months. But nevertheless the groom also was sometimes excited when caressing R—, so that once or twice there was masturb. mut. between them with ejacul. on the part of the older participant. Once, after looking at a photograph of a famous male statue, R—, does not recall which one, he "could not sleep for several nights" on account of thinking of the picture and longing to have it; was affected by his vague sexual ideas of embraces, kisses, etc. from such a type of man. At a little beyond thirteen, R— was sexually potent, he is sure; when fully fourteen was extremely so. Constant excitement as to male beauty, dreams of sexual sort, ejaculatio and the like. Never as to females. At sixteen, when home from hoarding-school one summer, he had another violent flame—for a young physician in attendance on his mother. He could not eat or sleep, haunted the street where the physician lived, and so on. But he had learned by this time to hide carefully his feelings, because he heard such sentiments laughed at, and called "girlish", "perverted" and so on, by schoolmates. At fourteen, R— was sent away to a school, where he stayed three years. It was the same story with him in this school. He had several intense friendships that were first and last strongly sexual. He was always cold to the talk about girls among his mates, and was constantly brooding rhapsodically over what it would be to have such "friendships" as he learned about from classical books, and miscellaneous reading. He found in this school one friend who was as similisexual a lad as himself, though quite manly otherwise, and had such ideals of masculine "friendships". He formed a close tie with R— including sexual intercourse (masturb. mut. et coit. inter femora, sed non in an. et non irrumatio) R— says that, like most schools, this one was "a regular forcing-house" for early similisexualism. E. g. the "relation" between one of the tutors and one older student was so well known to the pupils that nobody could understand why

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