question of concealment and custom. R— was, however, morally more and more in unrest, believing himself vicious, criminal, and also dreading the reactions that came: fearful of the mystery of his increasing horror femin. etc. He had intense pleasure, however, in all the sexual acts with his friend. The latter went to Italy some months before R— had finished his art-course, and there W— lives. The friendship is still warm though they only occasionally meet, and it remains also sexual. In all sexual roles, R— is temperamentally rather active than passive. Coit. analis, actively or passively, is usually disgusting to him".
"While abroad, and since returning to the American city where he lives, R— saw more or less of male prostitution, including juvenile, but always was disgusted with it. Only once, since returning to America, has he had relations with such a type; abstaining not only because he dreads scandal, blackmail etc., but in real sexual loathing. Once his physical repression led him to make such a "connection"; it gave him more sense of shame and physical and moral disgust than relief. In fact, all R—'s impulses so far as one can infer are of the most moral, decent and refined sort. He also says that "very seldom" in his life has he been able to maintain a sexual passion for any length of time when his intellectual and moral interest in the man has failed ".
"On his return, R— became at once very busy and successful. He has a fine mind, and he was always a superior student in other than his art-education. He was quite unhappy sexually, and in constant nervous excitement, till he came into touch with a respectable element of American similisexual life, and made a sexual intimacy with a young jurist of the city. This friend was considerably dionian, though he was sufficiently uranistic also to be on sexual terms with R—, and had some idea of the general temperament of R—'s, kind".
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