when we were sleeping together. I gave myself up in delight to his passion which, as you may guess, was fully ejaculative, as he was so old a lad; and we were mutually intimate sexually, then, and often later in his short life. His death deeply affected me."
"I will add that I am sure that my brother was homosexual. But I do not know how far so as to his friend A—. I never had opportunity to determine this, though I remember how I tried to do so. But my brother was in homosexual relations with many other friends, in his school-days and later, as I came to know when going through his letters and other memoranda by him, found after his death, when I was about twenty-five."
"So much for my earliest episodes of this sort. I come now to an incident of another bearing, when I was at Brussels, in 18…"
The remainder of the instance is not appropriate to the present chapter.
Instance from
Ulrichs: Psychic
(Youthful)
Uranianism.
An interesting delineation of boyish uranianism occurs in the little work "Memnon" of Ulrichs. It is, in part, as follows: "The first pure and true longing for love awoke in me when I was not yet ten. The object of it was one Eduard d'H—, a schoolmate two or three years older than I, when at the Aurich Gymnasium. He was a class higher than I; he being in the fourth form, and I in the fifth. Our parents were strangers to each other. I was not thrown with him. His beauty of person charmed me. He was not athletic in his type, but in the bloom of youth, almost pale in face, with fine-cut, beautiful features. all that, there was absolutely nothing girlish about him … A certain longing, never felt before, drew me to him, not however with a trace of sensual feeling. My tenth
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