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live and to die there, both of them together. He would be satisfied with bread; and if there were only enough for one, she should have it. What was the good of anything else? Was there anything in life worth more?
But she was unfolding her naked arms.
"Please, leave me."
Then, in a sudden impulse, he said in her ear:
"Wait, I'm coming with you."
And he was himself surprised at what he had said. He had sworn never to go down again; whence then came this sudden decision, arising from his lips without thought of his, without even a moment's discussion? There was now such calm within him, so complete a cure of his doubts, that he persisted like a man saved by chance, who has at last found the only harbour from his torment. So he refused to listen to her when she became alarmed, understanding that he was devoting himself for her and fearing the ill words which would greet him at the pit. He laughed at everything; the placards promised pardon and that was enough.
"I want to work; that's my idea. Let us dress and make no noise."
They dressed themselves in the darkness, with a thousand precautions. She had secretly prepared her miner's clothes the evening before; he took a jacket and breeches from the cupboard; and they did not wash themselves for fear of knocking the bowl. All were asleep, but they had to cross the narrow passage where the mother slept. When they started, as ill-luck would have it, they stumbled against a chair. She woke and asked, drowsily:
"Eh! what is it?"
Catherine had stopped, trembling, and violently pressing Étienne's hand.
"It's me; don't trouble yourself," he said. "I feel stifled and am going outside to breathe a bit."
"Very well."
And Maheude fell asleep again. Catherine dared not stir. At last she went down into the parlour and divided a slice of bread and butter which she had reserved from a loaf given by a Montsou lady. Then they softly closed the door and went away.
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