to be loved, as you deserve to be ? how else can she employ
her soul and her life ? Ah ! she has neither taste nor sensi-
bility ; of that I am sure. She ought to love you, if only
from vanity — but why do I meddle in all this ? You are
satisfied, or if you are not, you love the ill she does you ; why,
therefore, should I pity you ? But that other unhappy person !
it is she who interests me ; have you written to her ? is her
pain as deep as ever ? I must tell you that the other day at
Mme. de Boufflers much was said of you and " Le Conn^table,"
and the young Comtesse de Boufiiers told me that she believed
you were very much in love, and this belief had made her
watch Mme. de . . . with great attention. A man present
assured us that you no longer loved her ; you had done so,
but the feeling had worn out, and he thought you would
never be long happy or unhappy for the same woman ; he
said the activity of your soul did not allow it to fix itself
long on one object ; and from that arose a witty discussion
on matters of feeling and passion. The Comtesse de Boufiiers
finally said that she did not know who it was with whom
you were in love, but it certainly was no longer Mme. de . . .
and she judged, by the notes she had received from you at
the time of your departure, that you were strongly attached
to some one and that your absence from her rent your soul ;
but then came the natural reflection : " Why does he go to
Paissia ? " Perhaps to cure himself, perhaps to stifle the
feelings of the woman he loves. At last, after many conjec-
tures of no interest, I was asked if I liked you, if I knew you
v/ell, for until then I had not said a word : " Yes, I like him
much ; after knowing him a little there is only one way of
liking him." " Well, then, you know his intimacies ; who is
the object of Ms passion ? " " Xo, truly, I know nothing ;
except that he is now in Berlin and is well ; that the King of
Prussia has received him admirably and is to show him his
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[1773