LETTERS OF A JAVANESE PRINCESS
training for girls? How would you arrange it? But tell us what you would like to be yourself?"
I felt all eyes fastened upon me; those of my parents burned into my face. I cast down my own eyes. There was a buzzing and roaring in my ears, but above it I seemed to hear the words "Kartini be brave, do not waver."
"But tell me what do you wish to be?
"I know you wish to become a writer; but you do not have to be educated especially for that, you can become that by yourself."
Alas, for study I am too late; but at least I may "Raise my eyes on high and go humbly and quietly forward."
Mevrouw spoke to me for a long time about what you and I have discussed so often — "Woman." When we bade each other "Good-night," and were going to bed, she took my hands in both of hers, pressed them warmly and said "Little friend, we shall discuss this again some time; meanwhile I shall write to you often; will you do the same to me?"
The following morning we went with her part of the way, and during the three hours that we sat with her in the carriage she and I told each other so much. Although it was twelve o'clock when we separated the evening before, she had told her husband everything that she had learned from us.
"0 Regent," she cried again and again, "Give me one of your daughters, let her come to Batavia with me. Do let this young lady come to visit me; I shall come and fetch her myself."
Father told her that he thought of going to Batavia this year, "But they must remain at home with Mama, Mevrouw!" With that she appeared overcome with distress; was it earnest or a jest?
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