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Sunset.
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more, and finally, the replenished pewter went the rounds among the frantic crew; when, waving his free hand to them, they all dispersed; and Ahab retired within his cabin.



CHAPTER XXXVII.

sunset.

The cabin; by the stern windows; Ahab sitting alone, and gazing out.

I leave a white and turbid wake; pale waters, paler cheeks, where’er I sail.  The envious billows sidelong swell to whelm my track; let them; but first I pass.

Yonder, by the ever-brimming goblet’s rim, the warm waves blush like wine.  The gold brow plumbs the blue.  The diver sun—slow dived from noon,—goes down; my soul mounts up! she wearies with her endless hill.  Is, then, the crown too heavy that I wear? this Iron Crown of Lombardy.  Yet is it bright with many a gem; I the wearer, see not its far flashings; but darkly feel that I wear that, that dazzlingly confounds.  ’Tis iron—that I know—not gold.  ’Tis split, too—that I feel; the jagged edge galls me so, my brain seems to beat against the solid metal; aye, steel skull, mine; the sort that needs no helmet in the most brain-battering fight!

Dry heat upon my brow?  Oh! time was, when as the sunrise nobly spurred me, so the sunset soothed.  No more.  This lovely light, it lights not me; all loveliness is anguish to me, since I can ne’er enjoy.  Gifted with the high perception, I lack the low, enjoying power; damned, most subtly and most malignantly! damned in the midst of Paradise!  Good night—good night! (waving his hand, he moves from the window.)