MY SECRET LIFE
MY SECRET LIFE
My mother then went on a long visit to my aunt in H—tf—dshire, wanted me to go, .but I could not get away, so she took my sister from my aunt’s and Tom, and to my delight took Susan. Sarah was left as ser- vant, the deaf female relative came again to take charge of the house, and we three were alone in it. My mother’s last words were, “Give as little trouble as you can, and I hope Walter, you will keep out of bad society, and not be out late.” I was mostly to dine with- my guardian’s executor, an old family friend.
That night and for several weeks, Sara-h and I slept together, it was a honey-moon. My old relative, deaf and timid, used to lock her door; I used to go across to Sarah’s and lock it, mother having put back the key. We had fear of being found out, but not much. In those weeks we gave way so to our passions, that we were worn out. I taught her all I knew; she was will- ing, docile, and did all I told her: love’s amusements in every variety which I then knew of did we try; never had I had‘ such continuous fucking. The first thing mother on her return noticed, was that I was pale, and then great was 'her astonishment when told by my old deaf relative, that I had scarcely been out one night after seven o’clock, and up early most days; so my mother put it down to close attention to my studies, for I was preparing.
I told Sarah in confidence I had had a virgin, and that there had been difficulty with her, but none in getting into Sarah. She swore by all that was solemn that she never had had' a man, that although she had been kissed and tried, no man had put his hands on her naked thighs until I had. From what she had heard of girl’s virginities, she thought she must have been
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