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O, that I could address the Indians in their language. I did not attempt to preach, but gave a short exhortation from I. Cor. 10-21. "Whether therefore ye eat or drink" &c. I find myself very weak in body and my mind shares measur- ably the same fate. My voice too was much weaker than I had anticipated hence I said little and hardly know whether it was said to purpose or not. I feel a sort of listlessness enui [ennui] or want of energy that I can hardly account for. Lord deliver me from such apathy and nerve me for the work which thou hast given me to do.
It rained this morning a little which is not common here. It thundered and looked likely for a shower but we had wind and no rain.
Mon. July 28. Last evening two of Mr. McCay's men commenced a horse race and when the[y] [were] under full speed another ran in before them probibly with the intention of turning his horse and running with them but by some means he did not succeed and the others ran directly on to him and one of them was thrown and probibly the [horse] fell upon him and broke something inside for although he was blooded and cuped [cupped] and everything done for him that could be done yet his senses did not return and he expired at 3 o'clock A. M. He was a Canadian and a Catholic. By re- quest of Mr. McCay I attended at 12 o'clock, read the 90th Psalm prayed and then went to the grave and there read a part of the 15 Chap, of Cor. and the burial servise as found in our discipline but was at a loss to account for our Brethren's abridging that excelent servise in the manner that they have if they approved of having one at all for real[l]y it seems to me they might as well have none as have it in its present form. Nearly all the men from both camps attended the Funeral and appeared very solelm. O that they would re- member this that they woul'[d] think on their latter end. The Canadians put a cross upon his breast. He was buried without a coffin having no means of making one. A cross was erected at the Grave.
