Most certainly the hero would have married her, had she lived at his time; but, unfortunately, she comes too late. The connection proves our previous assertion that the libido moves round in a circle. The author loves herself; that is to say, she, as the hero, is sought by one who comes too late. This motive of coming too late is characteristic of the infantile love: the father and the mother cannot be overtaken. The separation of the two personalities by ten thousand moons is a wish fulfilment; with that the incest relation is annulled in an effectual manner. This white heroine will seek without being understood. (She is not understood, because she cannot understand herself rightly.) And she will not find. But in dreams, at least, they will find each other, "and she will understand." The next sentence of the text reads:
"I have kept my body inviolate."
This proud sentence, which naturally only a woman can
express, because man is not accustomed to boast in that
direction, again confirms the fact that all enterprises have
remained but dreams, that the body has remained "inviolate."
When the hero visits the heroine in a dream, it is
clear what is meant. This assertion of the hero's, that he
has remained inviolate, refers back to the unsuccessful
attempt upon his life in the previous chapter (huntsman
with the arrow), and clearly explains to us what was
really meant by this assault; that is to say, the refusal
of the coitus phantasy. Here the wish of the unconscious
obtrudes itself again, after the hero had repressed it the
first time, and thereupon he painfully and hysterically
