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LIFE OF ROBERT CARTER.
prospect of her recovery. When it was announced to her that she might yet get well, she said that she wished to have no choice in the matter; all that she desired was that God might be glorified, whether by her life or her death. For the sake of others she might desire to live, but upon the whole she would prefer, if it was the Lord’s will, to depart and be with Jesus, She spent the whole day in listening to the Scriptures, and conversing with me about the condition of the soul after death. She was perfectly calm and collected, and what she said was the deliberate utterance of faith, and not the language of excitement.
Before the last hour came she had a momentary conflict, but gained a glorious victory, and her joys were irrepressible; she threw her arms around my neck, and told me that her happiness was beyond expression; she felt the presence of Jesus, and rejoiced in him with joy inexpressible and fall of glory. It was a glorious death, a triumphal procession. What makes the whole matter more consoling is, that there had been for months a marked and rapid progress in divine things. She had been much in prayer, and as a proof of her intense spirituality she has left behind her a paper containing her reflections and feelings and purposes in the prospect of her marriage, and all bespeak the condition of one whose eye was single to the glory of God. It is a precious document, absolutely amazing for her years. Two days before she was taken sick, she had been on a visit to some friend in Sumter, and upon her return spoke to her mother of the delightful communion she had enjoyed with God in prayer. The Master was evidently maturing her for Heaven. The family has been amazingly sustained. The truth is, we dare not murmur, The grace has been so transcendent that it would be monstrous to repine. I feel my loss, for I loved her very tenderly; but I bless God for what my eyes have seen, and my ears heard. We have been afraid to grieve, the triumph was so illustrious, My second daughter is a professor of religion, and I think a true child of God.