myself so, because it’s not fair to you. And I’ve tried to find out—and I don’t think I love you as a man ought to love his wife. What do you think about it?”
Miriam bowed her head moodily. She was angry at having this struggle. People should leave him and her alone.
“I don’t know,” she murmured.
“Do you think we love each other enough to marry?” he asked definitely. It made her tremble.
“No,” she answered truthfully. “I don’t think so—we’re too young.”
“I thought perhaps,” he went on miserably, “that you, with your intensity in things, might have given me more—than I could ever make up to you. And even now—if you think it better—we’ll be engaged.”
Now Miriam wanted to cry. And she was angry, too. He was always such a child for people to do as they liked with.
“No, I don’t think so,” she said firmly.
He pondered a minute.
“You see,” he said, “with me—I don’t think one person would ever monopolize me—be everything to me—I think never.”
This she did not consider.
“No,” she murmured. Then, after a pause, she looked at him and her dark eyes flashed.
“This is your mother,” she said. “I know she never liked me.”
“No, no, it isn’t,” he said hastily. “It was for your sake she spoke this time. She only said, if I was going on, I ought to consider myself engaged.” There was a silence. “And if I ask you to come down any time, you won’t stop away, will you?”
She did not answer. By this time she was very angry.
“Well, what shall we do?” she said shortly. “I suppose I’d better drop French. I was just beginning to get on with it. But I suppose I can go on alone.”
“I don’t see that we need,” he said. “I can give you a French lesson, surely.”
“Well—and there are Sunday nights. I shan’t stop coming to chapel, because I enjoy it, and it’s all the social life I get. But you’ve no need to come home with me. I can go alone.”
“All right,” he answered, rather taken aback. “But if I ask Edgar, he’ll always come with us, and then they can say nothing.”
There was silence. After all, then, she would not lose much.
