“And this afternoon,” he struggled to say. “You will come?”
“I think so,” she replied, murmuring.
He stood before her, unable to say a word. She hid her face from him. Again came over him the feeling that he would lose consciousness. He set his teeth and went upstairs. He had done everything correctly yet, and he would do so. All the morning things seemed a long way off, as they do to a man under chloroform. He himself seemed under a tight band of constraint. Then there was his other self, in the distance, doing things, entering stuff in a ledger, and he watched that far-off him carefully to see he made no mistake.
But the ache and strain of it could not go on much longer. He worked incessantly. Still it was only twelve o’clock. As if he had nailed his clothing against the desk, he stood there and worked, forcing every stroke out of himself. It was a quarter to one; he could clear away. Then he ran downstairs.
“You will meet me at the Fountain at two o’clock,” he said.
“I can’t be there till half-past.”
“Yes!” he said.
She saw his dark, mad eyes.
“I will try at a quarter past.”
And he had to be content. He went and got some dinner. All the time he was still under chloroform, and every minute was stretched out indefinitely. He walked miles of street. Then he thought he would be late at the meeting-place. He was at the Fountain at five past two. The torture of the next quarter of an hour was refined beyond expression. It was the anguish of combining the living self with the shell. Then he saw her. She came! And he was there.
“You are late,” he said.
“Only five minutes,” she answered.
“I’d never have done it to you,” he laughed.
She was in a dark blue costume. He looked at her beautiful figure.
“You want some flowers,” he said, going to the nearest florists.
She followed him in silence. He bought her a bunch of scarlet, brick-red carnations. She put them in her coat, flushing.
“That’s a fine colour!” he said.
“I’d rather have had something softer,” she said.
