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The Journal of Leo Tolstoi
[1895

Nov. 6. Y. P. If I live.

November 7. Y. P.

I wrote a little these two days on the new Resurrection. My conscience hurts when I remember how trivially I began it. So far, I rejoice when I think of the work as I am beginning it.

I chopped a little. I went to Ovsiannikovo, had a good talk with Maria Alexandrovna13 and Ivan Ivanovich.14 Waltz's assistant was here and a Frenchman with a poem. . . .

November 8,9. Y. P.

Have written little on Resurrection. I was not disappointed, but I was weak.

Yesterday Dunaev15 came. Chopped much yesterday, overtired myself. To-day I walked. I went to Constantine Bieli's.16 He is very much to be pitied. Then I walked in the village. It is good with them, but with us it is shameful. Wrote letters. Wrote to Bazhenov17 and three others. Thought:

1 ) The. confirmation of the fact, that reason liberates the latent love in man for justice is the proverb, "Comprendre c'est tout pardoner." If you forgive a man, you will love him. To forgive means to cease to condemn and to hate.

2) If a man believes something at the word of another, he will lose his belief in that which

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