The Journal of Leo Tolstoi [1895
life to fulfil the will of Him who sent him into
this life.
Dec. 8. Moscow. If I live.
Mascha 32 is with Ilia, 33 a loving letter from her to-day.
To-day December 23. Moscow.
It is long since I have made an entry. On the 3Oth, the Chertkovs 34 came. It is two days since Kenworthy arrived. He is very pleasant. . . .
Have continued to write the Declaration am progressing. Off and on, I think out the drama, 35 and yesterday I raved about it all night. I am not well; a bad cold in the head, influenza. Be- cause of the letter to the Englishman, I began also a letter on the collision between England and America. 36
Have been thinking during this time :
i) I have been thinking especially clearly of that which I have already said many times; that all the evil in the world comes only from this, that people look upon themselves, upon their own personality, as a worthy object of their conscious life upon themselves or upon a group of per- sonalities, it is all the same.
As long as a man lives for himself unconsciously, he does no harm. If there is a struggle, then the struggle is an unconscious one which is ended at
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