thats why I was afraid when that other ferocious old Bull began to charge the
banderilleros with the sashes and the 2 things in their hats and the brutes
of men shouting bravo toro sure the women were as bad in their nice white
mantillas ripping all the whole insides out of those poor horses I never heard
of such a thing in all my life yes he used to break his heart at me taking off
the dog barking in bell lane poor brute and it sick what became of them ever I
suppose theyre dead long ago the 2 of them its like all through a mist makes you
feel so old I made the scones of course I had everything all to myself then a
girl Hester we used to compare our hair mine was thicker than hers she showed me
how to settle it at the back when I put it up and whats this else how to
make a knot on a thread with the one hand we were like cousins what
age was I then the night of the storm I slept in her bed she had her arms
round me then we were fighting in the morning with lhe pillow what
fun he was watching me whenever he got an opportunity at the band on
the Alameda esplanade when I was with father and Captain Grove I
looked up at the church first and then at the windows then down and our
eyes met I felt something go through me like all needles my eyes were
dancing I remember after when I looked at myself in the glass hardly
recognised myself the change I had a splendid skin from the sun and the
excitement like a rose I didnt get a wink of sleep it wouldnt have been nice
on account of her but I could have stopped it in time she gave me the
Moonstone to read that was the first I read of Wilkie Collins East Lynne I read
and the shadow of Ashlydyat Mrs Henry Wood Henry Dunbar by that other
woman I lent him afterwards with Mulveys photo in it so as he see I wasnt
without and Lord Lytton Eugene Aram Molly bawn she gave me by Mrs
Hungerford on account of the name I dont like books with a Molly in them like
that one he brought me about the one from Flanders a whore always shoplifting
anything she could cloth and stuff and yards of it this blanket is too heavy on
me thats better I havent even one decent nightdress this thing gets all rolled
up under me besides him and his fooling thats better I used to be weltering
then in the heat my shift drenched with the sweat stuck in the cheeks of my
bottom on the chair when I stood up they were so fattish and firm when I got
up on the sofa cushions to see with my clothes up and the bugs tons of them
at night and the mosquito nets I couldnt read a line Lord how long ago it
seems centuries of course they never come back and she didnt put her
address right on it either she may have noticed her wogger people were always
going away and we never I remember that day with the waves and the boats
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