THE SONG OF THE LARK
being woven into a big web. You can't pull away, because all your little tendrils are woven into the picture. It takes you up, and uses you, and spins you out; and that is your life. Not much else can happen to you."
"Did n't you think of marrying, several years ago?"
"You mean Nordquist? Yes; but I changed my mind. We had been singing a good deal together. He 's a splendid creature."
"Were you much in love with him, Thea?" the doctor asked hopefully.
She smiled again. "I don't think I know just what that expression means. I 've never been able to find out. I think I was in love with you when I was little, but not with any one since then. There are a great many ways of caring for people. It 's not, after all, a simple state, like measles or tonsilitis. Nordquist is a taking sort of man. He and I were out in a rowboat once in a terrible storm. The lake was fed by glaciers,—ice water,—and we could n't have swum a stroke if the boat had filled. If we had n't both been strong and kept our heads, we 'd have gone down. We pulled for every ounce there was in us, and we just got off with our lives. We were always being thrown together like that, under some kind of pressure. Yes, for a while I thought he would make everything right." She paused and sank back, resting her head on a cushion, pressing her eyelids down with her fingers. "You see," she went on abruptly, "he had a wife and two children. He had n't lived with her for several years, but when she heard that he wanted to marry again, she began to make trouble. He earned a good deal of money, but he was careless and always wretchedly in debt. He came to me one day and told me he thought his wife would settle for a hundred thousand marks and consent to a divorce. I got very angry and sent him away. Next day he came back and said he thought she 'd take fifty thousand."
Dr. Archie drew away from her, to the end of the sofa.
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