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VII

I saw very little of Brand in London after Elsa's arrival in his parents' house at Chelsea. I was busy, as usual, watching the way of the world, and putting my nose down to bits of blank paper which I proceeded to spoil with futile words. Brand was doing the same thing in his study on the top floor of the house in Cheyne Walk, while Elsa, in true German style, was working embroidery, or reading English literature to improve her mind and her knowledge of the language.

Brand was endeavouring strenuously to earn money enough to make him free of his father's house. He failed, on the whole, rather miserably. He began a novel on the war, became excited with it for the first six chapters, then stuck hopelessly, and abandoned it.

"I find it impossible," he wrote to me, "to get the real thing into my narrative. It is all wooden, unnatural, and wrong. I can't get the right perspective on paper, although I think I see it clear enough when I'm not writing. The thing is too enormous, the psychology too complicated, for my power of expression. A thousand characters, four years of experience, come crowding into my mind, and I can't eliminate the unessential and stick the point of my pen into the heart of truth. Besides, the present state of the world, to say nothing of domestic trouble, prevents anything like concentration. . . . And my nerves have gone to hell."

After the abandonment of his novel he took to writing articles for magazines and newspapers, some of which