The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda/Volume 9/Excerpts from Sister Nivedita's Book/XI At Srinagar On The Return Journey
CHAPTER XI
AT SRINAGAR ON THE RETURN JOURNEY
PERSONS: The Swami Vivekananda and a party of Europeans and disciples,
amongst whom were Dhira Mata, the "Steady Mother"; one whose name was Jaya;
and Nivedita.
PLACE: Kashmir — Srinagar.
TIME: August 9 to August 13, 1898.
AUGUST 9.
At this time the Master was always talking of leaving us. And when I find
the entry "The river is pure that flows, the monk is pure that goes", I know
exactly what it means — the passionate outcry "I am always so much better
when I have to undergo hardships and beg my bread", the longing for freedom
and the touch of the common people, the picture of himself making a long
circuit of the country on foot and meeting us again at Baramulla for the
journey home.
His family of boat-people, whom he had staunchly befriended through two
seasons, left us today. Afterwards he would refer to the whole incident of
their connection with him as proof that even charity and patience could go
too far.
AUGUST 10.
It was evening, and we all went out to pay some visit. On the return he
called his disciple Nivedita to walk with him across the fields. His talk
was all about the work and his intentions in it. He spoke of the
inclusiveness of his conception of the country and its religions; of his own
distinction as being solely in his desire to make Hinduism active,
aggressive, a missionary faith; of "don't-touch-ism" as the only thing he
repudiated. Then he talked with depth of feeling of the
gigantic spirituality of many of those who were most orthodox. India wanted
practicality, but she must never let go her hold on the old meditative life
for that. "To be as deep as the ocean and as broad as the sky", Shri
Ramakrishna has said, was the ideal. But this profound inner life in the
soul encased within orthodoxy is the result of an accidental, not an
essential, association. "And if we set ourselves right here, the world will
be right, for are we not all one? Ramakrishna Paramahamsa was alive to the
depths of his being, yet on the outer plane he was perfectly active and
capable."
And then of that critical question of the worship of his own master, "My own
life is guided by the enthusiasm of that great personality, but others will
decide for themselves how far this is true for them. Inspiration is not
filtered out to the world through one man".
AUGUST 11.
There was occasion this day for the Swami to rebuke a member of this party
for practising palmistry. It was a thing he said that everyone desired, yet
all India despised and hated. Yes, he said, in reply to a little special
pleading, even of character-reading he disapproved. "To tell you the truth,
I should have thought even your incarnation more honest if he and his
disciples had not performed miracles. Buddha unfrocked a monk for doing it."
Later, talking on the subject to which he had now transferred his attention,
he spoke with horror of the display of the least of it as sure to bring a
terrible reflex.
AUGUST 12
AND 13.
The Swami had now taken a Brahmin cook. Very touching had been the arguments
of the Amarnath Sâdhus against his willingness to let even a Mussulman cook
for him. "Not in the land of Sikhs at least, Swamiji", they had said, and he
had at last consented. But for the present he was worshipping his little
Mohammedan boat-child as Umâ. Her whole idea of love was service, and the
day he left Kashmir she, tiny one, was fain to carry a tray of apples for
him all the way to the tonga herself. He never forgot her, though he seemed
quite indifferent at the time. In Kashmir itself he was fond of recalling
the time when she saw a blue flower on the towing path and sitting down
before it, and striking it this way and that, "was alone with that flower
for twenty minutes".
There was a piece of land by the riverside on which grew three chennaars, towards which our thoughts turned with peculiar love at this time. For the Mahârâjâ was anxious to give it to Swamiji, and we all pictured it as a centre of work in the future — work which should realize the great idea of "by the people, for the people, as a joy to worker and to served".
In view of Indian feeling about a homestead blessed by women, it had been
suggested that we should go and annex the site by camping there for a while.
One of our party, moreover, had a personal wish for special quiet at this
time. So it was decided that we should establish "a women's Math", as it
were, before the Maharaja should require the land to confer it on the Swami.
And this was possible because the spot was one of the minor camping grounds
used by Europeans.