The King of the Dark Chamber/Act 16
XVI
Sudarshana and Surangama
Sudarshana
The fight is over now. When will the King come?
Surangama
I do not know myself: I am also looking forward to his coming.
Sudarshana
I feel such a throb of joy, Surangama, that my breast is positively aching. But I am dying with shame too; how shall I show my face to him?
Surangama
Go to him in utmost humility and resignation, and all shame will vanish in a moment.
Sudarshana
I cannot help confessing that I have met with my uttermost defeat for all the rest of my life. But pride made me claim the largest share in his love so long. Every one used to say I had such wonderful beauty, such graces and virtues; every one used to say that the King showed unlimited kindness towards me—this is what makes it difficult for me to bend my heart in humility before him.
Surangama
This difficulty, my Queen, will pass off.
Sudarshana
Oh, yes, it will pass—the day has arrived for me to humble myself before the whole world. But why does not the King come to take me back? What more is he waiting for yet?
Surangama
Have I not told you my King is cruel and hard—very hard indeed?
Sudarshana
Go out, Surangama, and bring me news of him.
Surangama
I do not know where I should go to get any news of him. I have asked Grandfather to come; perhaps when he comes we shall hear something from him.
Sudarshana
Alack, my evil fate! I have been reduced to asking others to hear about my own King!
Enter Grandfather
Sudarshana
I have heard that you are my King's friend, so accept my obeisance and give me your blessings.
Grandfather
What are you doing, Queen? I never accept anybody's obeisance. My relation with every one is only that of comradeship.
Sudarshana
Smile on me, then—give me good news. Tell me when the King is coming to take me back.
Grandfather
You ask me a hard question, indeed! I hardly understand yet the ways of my friend. The battle is over, but no one can tell where he is gone.
Sudarshana
Is he gone away, then?
Grandfather
I cannot find any trace of him here.
Sudarshana
Has he gone? And do you call such a person your friend?
Grandfather
That is why he gets people's abuse as well as suspicion. But my King simply does not mind it in the least.
Sudarshana
Has he gone away? Oh, oh, how hard, how cruel, how cruel! He is made of stone, he is hard as adamant! I tried to move him with my own bosom—my breast is torn and bleeding—but him I could not move an inch! Grandfather, tell me, how can you manage with such a friend?
Grandfather
I have known him now—I have known him through my griefs and joys—he can make me weep no more now.
Sudarshana
Will he not let me know him also?
Grandfather
Why, he will, of course. Nothing else will satisfy him.
Sudarshana
Very well, I shall see how hard he can be! I shall stay here near the window without saying a word; I shall not move an inch; let me see if he will not come!
Grandfather
Sudarshana
I do not want him—I will not seek him! Surangama, I have no need of your King! Why did he fight with the princes? Was it for me at all? Did he want to show off his prowess and strength? Go away from here—I cannot bear your sight. He has humbled me to the dust, and is not satisfied still!